I haven’t written for quite some time. Not sure why. My excuse is time, but that is really only an excuse. Maybe habit? I just got out of the habit? Or maybe I just got lazy. Doesn’t really matter. I am back now and ready to continue to share my story.
It has been almost 5 years since I found out about the affair. Interestingly, I couldn’t remember how long it had been and had to look it up. I have come so far since that day. I am a different person. The affair and the crazy time afterwards just seems surreal now. I am not proud of my behavior in finding out and the months afterwards. But when I look back now, I really have sympathy for me. I didn’t see it coming and had no clue how to respond. And the things I feared the most, him leaving me and a divorce, have turned out to be the most liberating events of my life.
It has all been such a huge chance to learn and grow, and set my soul free. I am still discovering who I am daily. And I still love the self-exploration. Some thought I was silly to go so deep and stay with it, but I just really enjoy learning about myself. Why I do the things I do. Why I think the things I think. And finding ways to change those things that just don’t serve where I am going. Honestly, I have learned to really love who I am, and think I am just darn awesome and fabulous!
So what is going on with me…
I am making it on my own! I am having much success as a real estate sales agent, and am truly enjoying it. I am continuing to travel the world. I am still kind of seeing the guy I met at my high school reunion. I have an amazingly close relationship with my daughter. I now have a wonderful daughter-in-law. I have many close friends, people who I now love and would never have met without the affair. It all just really blows me away on a daily basis.
If anyone out there is suffering the effects of being cheated on, and wonders what will happen to them, please know that there can be so much love and beauty outside of that mess. I am truly living a life way beyond my wildest dreams, and know that it is available to everyone. I hope my story can help anyone in this situation to see the light, as there is always a light. I was going to say light at the end of the tunnel. But this is not the end. It is truly a new beginning!