I ran into my ex’s closest and oldest friend today. Hadn’t seen him in years. I thought it had been 30 years, he said more like 10. Whatever. It was actually really great to see him. After all the hi’s and I can’t believe it’s, he said he was sorry to hear what happened and […]
Read MoreI think I am doing great. I know I am doing well. I am coming up to 5 years of finding out about the affair and having my now ex walk out of my life. I am creating a wonderful life. I get a lot of inspiration and learning from books. Last week I was […]
Read MoreI am in a yoga gratitude challenge this month at my yoga studio. Along with 16 yoga practices this month, we are asked to practice daily gratitude. One suggestion is to write a gratitude A-Z list, for each letter of the alphabet find something you feel real gratitude for. So I began. A. The first […]
Read MoreI haven’t written for quite some time. Not sure why. My excuse is time, but that is really only an excuse. Maybe habit? I just got out of the habit? Or maybe I just got lazy. Doesn’t really matter. I am back now and ready to continue to share my story. It has been almost […]
Read MoreI actually didn’t even know if I would recognize him. When we talked about getting together, I asked if he just wanted to meet somewhere. He said no, he would pick me up. I was staying at my mother’s apartment. He texted me when he got there. I went down to meet him. It was […]
Read MoreIn the aftermath of the affair, my self-esteem was pretty much gone. I didn’t feel like a beautiful, sexual, wonderful, vibrant female, but rather like an old dried up hag. The thought of dating again scared the heck out of me. There was no way I wanted to get hurt again. And I felt like […]
Read MoreMy house was in contract, and I now had 6 weeks until I was moving back to Ohio. I was excited about going back to the US, and leaving Canada. I was done with Calgary. But fear also struck and struck large. I would now be moving across the continent, and driving with my 85 […]
Read MoreI had so many questions, and I wanted answers, and wanted them quickly. I had so many questions about the affair, the end of the marriage, the other woman. But I also had a lot of questions about my life. Where would I go? Would I stay in Calgary or move back to the US? […]
Read MoreI kept busy for the next 6 months. Between school, my dog and my workouts, my days were somewhat full. And I still spent hours talking to my friends, particularly some of the women I met at the Take your Life Back retreat in Dallas. Crazy thing was, I still wanted my husband back. There […]
Read MoreIt’s not fair. I am the good one in this relationship. I didn’t stray. And yet, I am the one hurting. I am the one by myself. This thought would race through my mind, over and over, many times throughout this journey. It would piss me off. He had someone to sleep with, someone to […]
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Finding-Fabulous 