I ran into my ex’s closest and oldest friend today. Hadn’t seen him in years. I thought it had been 30 years, he said more like 10. Whatever. It was actually really great to see him. After all the hi’s and I can’t believe it’s, he said he was sorry to hear what happened and […]
I think I am doing great. I know I am doing well. I am coming up to 5 years of finding out about the affair and having my now ex walk out of my life. I am creating a wonderful life. I get a lot of inspiration and learning from books. Last week I was […]
I am in a yoga gratitude challenge this month at my yoga studio. Along with 16 yoga practices this month, we are asked to practice daily gratitude. One suggestion is to write a gratitude A-Z list, for each letter of the alphabet find something you feel real gratitude for. So I began. A. The first […]
I haven’t written for quite some time. Not sure why. My excuse is time, but that is really only an excuse. Maybe habit? I just got out of the habit? Or maybe I just got lazy. Doesn’t really matter. I am back now and ready to continue to share my story. It has been almost […]
I hurt a friend deeply by saying something I should not have. We were out drinking and carrying on and I did something stupid. But that is not an excuse. I own my bad behavior and feel just terrible about it. One huge thing I have gotten from this journey after the betrayal is to […]
In the aftermath of the affair, my self-esteem was pretty much gone. I didn’t feel like a beautiful, sexual, wonderful, vibrant female, but rather like an old dried up hag. The thought of dating again scared the heck out of me. There was no way I wanted to get hurt again. And I felt like […]
When you end up on the other side of a relationship, instead of asking yourself, “What was I thinking?” try, “What was I learning?” – Timber Hawkeye I read this quote recently, and it stuck with me. I am now on the other side of my marriage, and I have learned so much. About relationships, […]
My house was in contract, and I now had 6 weeks until I was moving back to Ohio. I was excited about going back to the US, and leaving Canada. I was done with Calgary. But fear also struck and struck large. I would now be moving across the continent, and driving with my 85 […]
I knew I had to leave Calgary. But that was such a hard decision to truly make and put into action. My then husband made it really obvious to me that he was never coming back. I had no family there. Calgary, though beautiful, is cold for a lot of the year. And I love […]
I have felt off for a week or so now. Just off. A friend has attended Unitarian Universalist church, and he asked me to join him last Sunday. He told me that it was the first service since summer, and I might find it interesting. He is a good friend, and knows me enough to […]